翁珧峻给李姿倩的第三封信

姿倩，世上最美丽的姿倩，

每次想念你，就会想叫你的名，每一天，一定会对你挂念。 你那独一无二的笑容，我实在是忘不了。

到了这个地步，我也不能做什么。 想要留你在我身边的资格没了，想照顾你一辈子的诺言，除非你愿意，否则我也实现不到，原本想让你幸福的信心，也不知为何，也找不到。

我曾说过，当你遇到你觉得值得让你等待的那一个特别的人，那个人，一定是你的真爱。 我相信你也知道，对我来说，你就是那一个特别的人。 我一直都相信，当你遇到你的真爱时，认识还是不认识，你的心，一定会告诉你，那一个人，就是你的唯一。

我曾说过，有些人，等了一辈子，寻找了一世，也遇不到他们的真爱。 我却不知道是不是上世的福气，上天却让我这么快就遇见了我的真爱。 人家说，失去了，才懂得去珍惜。 我却在我们俩的感情学到，一个人一旦失去了他最珍贵的一半，那个人才可以学会怎样去真真地爱和珍惜。 真的谢谢你让我感受过，谢谢你让我明白爱，也谢谢你曾经爱过我。

你不能接受我爱一个人的方式，我一点也没怪你。 你要的爱，我给不到，你要的全部，我没有能力给完你。 我每次对你的伤害，每次让你流泪，我对不起你。 我全都能接受，全都能忍受，就是不能看到你不开心，不能看到你伤心，不能忍受你被伤害，不能接受你在受苦。

我没有不甘心，没有不开心，因为遇到了你，爱上了你。 这对我来说，足够了。

你问我，为什么不放手，为什么那么执著，我想我告诉过你，我不是放不开，我不是执著，因为真爱，根本不需要放开，因为根本就没有在抓着，因为能爱一个人，是幸福的。

现在也好，以后也好，我都会在这儿，守候着你，守候着我们的爱。 默默地守候，的确让人心痛，但是我还是无法忘记你。能让我开心地，是你的微笑。 能让我幸福的，就是知道你在幸福的事实。 我们能认识，是上天的安排。 所以我永远都会爱着你。

一定要幸福，知道吗？ 哈哈，其实我根本不用担心的，对吧？你那么善良，那么坚强，一定会幸福的。

你知道我爱你的这个事实，就好了。 我相信，总有一天，你真的会明白我的意思。 我从来没有要你回报我对你的好，我只是希望你可以明白，我为你做的全部，一直以来对你的好，出自于真心。

我对你的爱，并不是伟大，而只是真实。

有你这份爱，足够陪着我一生。 有你这份爱，我也不再怕寂寞。

你永远都是我心里那一只漂亮的天鹅。

珧峻

I know you care, but,

You know what the hardest part is?

I know I should not feel this but the feeling still creeps around me,

I know that it will hurt me after but I still want to feel it.

The hardest part?

Every part of me, inside and out, yearns to see you, but another half of me, the rational one, prevents it, pulling me back, stopping me from going to you.

I know what will happen if I do, but I still want to see you. It hurts when things are this way.

I hate this feeling of weakness. I hate this feeling of pain.

You said I'm always sad? Wrong. I was happy. When? Every second when you're with me. Every minute when things isn't what they are now. Every hour when I can see you.

You want me to be happy? You're worried about me? I know that. Truly, I do.

But since you made the decision, then don't worry bout' me kay'? You know things were going to be this way, so why worry now? You understand me better than I do myself, so you should know I would never do anything to make you unhappy.

I keep on asking myself the same question, is it TIME that I need? Maybe.

But if you truly understand, and if you truly care, as long as you're happy everyday, okay, well, maybe not everyday, but most of the time, then it will make my pain more bearable. You want that for me right? =)

Smile kay? =) To me, your smile is the most beautiful thing, an antidote to my pain. Every time I feel unwell, I look for your smile. XD

I'll deal with the pain alone okay?

Since my existence as the unhappy one is causing all the problems between all three of us right?

You, me, him. And also your life.

And since there's no reason making all three suffer because of my unhappiness, yes?

Fine, I'll deal with the pain alone. You just go on happily alright?

I can't even say take care anymore, there's nothing more I can say, just be happy.

Only To You

Since you're the most important person to me, and, might I add, someone I care about the most, I shall not deprive you of the truth k?

You care for him. You're willing to stay and to do everything you can to see him happy.

You think I am not doing everything in my power to make myself happy. To find the reason to be happy. And you gave up on me.

And since I promised you I would never put you through any pressure from your family and our friends because of me anymore, I WILL make good on my promise to you.

I don't want you to be unhappy, and I will do what I proposed to you in my car that afternoon.

He thinks my presence makes him feel incompetent? What I do for you makes him feel down? 'Emo' even? I'll disappear from his sight then. Haha.

I trust you, you know that right? You said you wouldn't put yourself in danger's path, I believe you. Truly I do. As long as you can promise me you'll be happy, I'm willing to promise you anything that you want of me.

-Don't spend anymore cash on you? Done.
-Don't fetch you around so much? After your performance, it shall be done. XD
-Stop treating you extra nice? hmm, can't say I can abide THAT, but, well, I'll do it as minimal as I can. =p

I'm not saying that I'm breaking off contact with you you know? Don't get me wrong, I'm your best friend forever right? Somewhere and someone you feel comfortable with when you need some time off from life. XD As long as I can be that friend to you, I'm happy enough. =)

Do take care k? Annyong. Hehe.

Yours Truly,
Ivan