chasing you, seeing you, thinking you and ultimately, facing you

chasing after you everywhere and when I open my eyes, I realized it was just a dream.

seeing you alone I walked towards you and just like that 'he' appeared next to you.

thinking of you puts me in an inescapable turmoil, seeing you puts me in an exhilarating rush, but facing you, those words that I want to convey just diffuses just like that.

I feel you everywhere.

What Is It About You?

What is it about you that makes me run to you every time you call?

What is it about you that I can never seem to forget you?

What is it about you that puts my heart in a frenzy every time I see you?

What is it about you that makes me miss you even after I told myself you're not worth it?

Tell me, please.

Its never gonna stop, will it?

Is it an infatuation? Or is it unrequited love?

Forgive me if I thought too highly of myself for saying it.

Life's Diary

You remember that book we both had? The book with the black covers and pages? Flipped through it recently and was thinking of finishing it. Don't know why but it still seems incomplete with the remaining empty pages. You gave yours back to me a long time ago, did I really matter? You told me I did with your words but, 'actions speak louder than words' you know that right? I don't seem to see our footprints in your memories.

Oh, of course you'll be making new memories now, but the same question still lingers in my head everyday, why am I still in love with you? (I seriously don't care if you read this, cause' I know you won't feel a thing) I may deny it in front of you, in front of everybody, even the world. But I just can't let it go you know? It's not like I haven't tried, I can really face the world and say 'I did try my best', but why have I only succeeded partially?

Yes, I can get by the day, and yes, I can smile a true smile. But not thinking about you for at least a single day? Not missing you whenever I see something that may remind me of you? Truly enjoying life? I'm not able to do those things yet. Do I really have to let time run its course before I'm able to forget my love for you completely? If so, how long will it take? Everyday I wake up, it just seems like I'm hoping that I never knew this love.

I've told you before, after knowing you, loving you, I can never look at another girl the same way I look at you. It's happening now, I thought it wouldn't, I thought it wasn't true, I really thought it was just my emotional side talking. Guess I was wrong about that.

Quote from Jordan Roark

" I hope that I've healed during our year apart, and that I'm sitting with you while you read this. But if I'm not, it's not because I don't love you... Because ...I do. And it's not because I don't miss you, because I miss you already. It'll just mean that I'm not better. And the story isn't over yet."

— Jordan Roark

You Are

You are not the first person that I've loved,
But you are the only person I will ever love.

姿倩啊，

我回来了姿倩。只想告诉你，我在那儿，找到了勇气，找到了生活下去的意思。没有你，我还是能活下去，为了家人，还是得坚强下去，为了看到你幸福，还是要努力下去。不会再为了爱情而倒下。

生活的意义，只是为了家人，为了你的幸福，为了世界。

原因还是一样，只要你能幸福，只要你能开心，我这一辈子，也没白活下去了。

我永远都是支持你的，知道吗？

对不起，现在不能见到你，请你原谅我没有勇气和你面对面，只怕如果再次见到你那世上最美丽的脸孔，我那不听话的心，会再次爱上你，那时，我可真的真的不想再放手了。。

一定要保重呀，姿倩。。

一定要保重呀姿倩

对不起，不能做完你要我做的那三样事。
我能够祝福你，能够答应你会好好过，可是你要我抛弃我对你的爱，我做不到，你做到了，恭喜你，可是，原谅我呀姿倩，我没用能力做到。

可能是自己不想忘记，但是我累了，不想考虑那么多，不想再继续伤心下去了。

我在这几个星期里，学会接受了很多东西，没有你在我身边的日子，也慢慢学会度过，努力不让自己伤心，努力不让自己想太多，接受了你我是回忆，在日子里找到足够能让我有少少微笑的东西。

我一直都会在这里，多多保重呀姿倩。你答应过我不会让自己跌下来，不会让自己有危险，不会让自己受到伤害，我知道你是做得到。=）

这一次去柔佛，也不懂会发生什么事情，有点害怕，可是我会度过的，有你给我的回忆，我一定可以度过每一天。

My Swan

Gonna find the perfect swan, my life's newest & only mission..xD

It's only a substitute to what I wanted. Nevertheless, it the only thing I can do now.

Avoiding things may only be a temporary bliss, but seeing it face to face..it makes me afraid.

You made me realize forever is more harder than it seems. Why?