Life's Diary

You remember that book we both had? The book with the black covers and pages? Flipped through it recently and was thinking of finishing it. Don't know why but it still seems incomplete with the remaining empty pages. You gave yours back to me a long time ago, did I really matter? You told me I did with your words but, 'actions speak louder than words' you know that right? I don't seem to see our footprints in your memories.

Oh, of course you'll be making new memories now, but the same question still lingers in my head everyday, why am I still in love with you? (I seriously don't care if you read this, cause' I know you won't feel a thing) I may deny it in front of you, in front of everybody, even the world. But I just can't let it go you know? It's not like I haven't tried, I can really face the world and say 'I did try my best', but why have I only succeeded partially?

Yes, I can get by the day, and yes, I can smile a true smile. But not thinking about you for at least a single day? Not missing you whenever I see something that may remind me of you? Truly enjoying life? I'm not able to do those things yet. Do I really have to let time run its course before I'm able to forget my love for you completely? If so, how long will it take? Everyday I wake up, it just seems like I'm hoping that I never knew this love.

I've told you before, after knowing you, loving you, I can never look at another girl the same way I look at you. It's happening now, I thought it wouldn't, I thought it wasn't true, I really thought it was just my emotional side talking. Guess I was wrong about that.