Who You Should Spend Your Life With

you don't marry someone you can live with,
you marry the person who you cannot live without.

yeah, and if the person you cannot live without lives with another,
you live alone till the end.

still loving you no matter whoever you're with.

been to places where we used to be

been going to places we've been before,
retracing your steps and mine,
the park,
the places we've stopped in my car,
malls,
really can't believe all this would be gone in 41 days,
is fate and destiny really that cruel?

i love you.

My Stupidity

every minute seems like a day to me,
every day seems like a year to me,
Damn.

Looks like it's gonna be a long year.
I know it's hard for you too,
Like you said,
Some things that are gone can never come back,
yeah, maybe it is.

Missing you like crazy.

Why?

why can't I do it?
why can't I forget?
everywhere I go,
everything I do,
your shadow is there,
your scent is there,
your image,
your touch,
your memory,
i'm going insane by the minute,
thought i could do it,
thought i could put you to the back of my mind,
what can i do??

I seriously miss you a lot,
wanna call you,
but,
I know I shouldn't,
God, i'm really pathetic.

I still love you. But, do you still?
Stupid question, I know.

yeah, some people just shouldn't be in love

yeah, some people just shouldn't be in love,

maybe.

Take care,

In the choices you'll make.

I love you.

Godbless You

I know he's your friend and everything, you've promised him and all that, but for once, you've seriously broken my heart. I know I'm the one who asked you about it, and maybe I deserved it. I never knew it could happen, never wanted it ever, but you've broken my heart.

In pieces, fragments, you may ask me why, what did you do wrong, you did NOTHING wrong, trust me. But if you knew, if you cared, if you knew it was what I didn't really like of all things, if I really mattered to you, if you could have just told me beforehand, although I know it may not be necessary to you, then maybe things could have turned out differently.

People move on all the time, for some, it may be slower, for some others, it just takes a day. You always tell me action speaks louder than words, well, if that's the case, I don't know what to believe anymore.

I wondered at that moment, at the moment you told me about it, have you already moved on? Have you gave up on us already? Is there nothing in me that could have held you back? Well, yes or no, your actions have spoken, as clear as ever, to me.

And at that moment, my heart shattered, all my beliefs burst, everything I have trusted, just fell down, just like that.

Love you still, no matter what. I really don't know why.

My Heart Is With You Forever & Ever

Staying true to you is what I've decided,
And it's what I shall fulfill.
In years to come,
You'll always & forever be,
My reason for living,
And loving.
You are,
my soul mate.

I love you,
Alice

Yours truly,
Ivan

For You

Although it's become this way,
I'll have to harden my resolve,
For you, or for me,
You'll have to get through this obstacle,
I'll forever be here supporting you,
In the future,
With or without me,
You still have to get through,
For forever to happen,
Be it me or be it not,
You'll still have to find true happiness,
I'll still be here,
For you,
Whether you want me nearby or far away,
I'll still be around,
Forever being by your side,
And truly,
Till death does my heart stop beating,
That's when I'll no longer be able to hold your love,
No longer able to keep my promise,
To protect, to persevere, our love.

I still love you,whether you want to hear it or not.

-It's Just Hard-

just can't seem to close it up, our memories, our times, your scent, your every caress..
how can I forget it just like that? Trying very hard to keep it real, but, it just doesn't work like that.

just can't seem to hold the barriers that I've been building, just can't seem to keep away,
I know I made the choice, I know I forced you to give up on me, but, it's just hard.

just hoping, that in your memories, my true feelings is with you.
the true happiness that I've discovered, is that I've fallen in love with you,
even if the world is at an end, even if everything disappears,
just hoping, you'll forever remember my arms are always around you, holding you, supporting you,

but only love can say, try again or walk away, but I believe, for you and me, the sun will shine one day.

so I just play my part, pray you'll have a change of heart, that I can make you see it through, that something only true love can do.

don't know why I'm still holding on,
you seem to have let it go away.

still loving you anyway.

A Day

A day may be just a short while, but it lasts forever.

Loving someone and then losing him/her may be heart-breaking, but the memory of it is treasured forever.

I love you
Although I know you already don't wanna hear it.

Last Letter To You

Dearest ZhiQian ,

Ironic how we ended up this way huh? I know it's hard for you if i say and do this but, it
'll be better for you I guess, I wouldn't want my condition to affect you too, I should have realized it earlier but, guess I was to caught up with trying to make you happy, trying to keep you with me. No words can describe how was i feeling at that moment, watching you opening the door of my car and getting out, saying a last goodbye, watching your house door closing while you walk towards your house without a backwards glance, my world shattered right then...God knows how much I wanted to get out of my car and to pull you into my arms, the restraint I had was only because I wanted you to be happy. Every memory we had in this month flooded through me again and again, me holding your hand, you lying in my arms, the times we spent together, it's just hard to forget, although you've given me precious memories to last me a lifetime, well, I guess I'm just not prepared to lose you so soon.

I love you, I love you, I love you...i could say this on and on to you, but would it really touch your heart?.. I truly thank you for trying to understand me, for putting up with me while i was down, I know you've done everything you can to make me happy, but I didn't treasure your efforts, didn't realize how much I meant to you. In the end, the only fact that kept my sanity was believing that you loved me, and I loved you. On the way home, all I wanted was to just speed through the red light, to end my life. But what good would it do?.. Making you sad forever? My death forever on your conscience? It's just pointless.

Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, maybe we just weren't destined to be together, if that's the case, well, I really hope you'll find your happiness, don't stay sad, don't stop smiling, it's not worth to torture yourself over me. It's fine if you're bored of hearing this but, do take good care of yourself, I may not be around that often anymore... It really is the hardest decision that I've ever made, to disappear from your sights forever, trust me when I really want to stay by your side, to take care of you, to do everything I can to make you happy, but I guess fate just won't allow me to do that.

Don't worry bout' me k? I'll hold on to your words and try to cure my condition, only for you I would have the strength to do whatever it takes to bring out the best in me. I'll live on, I can't guarantee to live on happily but..I'll just live on. If you promise me to stay happy and to find your true happiness. Promise me you'll find someone who can really take care of you, there IS someone out there who is able to do it, believe me.

My heart is with you forever, please take good care of it? I love you, forever.

Eternally loving you,

Ivan

A True Apology To You

Looking back, I realized how blessed I am to be with you. To be able to see you almost everyday, to be right next to you, to be able to be by your side whenever you need me. To be able to do anything I can for you, is my dream come true, I realized also that I've over-stepped the line of my dreams a little, and for that error I've made, I think that I may have robbed you of your personal space as well. I am sorry for being so selfish and inconsiderate of your needs.

Forgive me of my ignorance, I've troubled you in the sense of your personal time. Forgive me if you know of my mistake but because of your kindness, you've not said a word. I've overlooked this prime factor of a relationship. Both of us do have our personal space, you've given me ample time for mine, but because of my foolishness, forgot about some things that can only be done alone.

Do forgive me? I know now what is wrong in some places, I will strive my best to correct, to improve myself, not to be the best for you, but to be someone whom you can always turn to whenever you need a shoulder and a listener to all your problems, dilemmas, difficulties and whatever that ails you.

I love you forever, cause' forever means eternal.